sundown∞

2013-01-28

have to try and stay positive about this year and everything!

seems very difficult right now though.

2013-01-17

this song gets me, everytime

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A step forward.

i think ive always had this blog for the wrong reason, or to be honest no reason at all. Maybe to make a snide little post to gain some ones attention - which is dumb.

But i think today was an important day because for the first time ever, i have felt myself making mature decisions with my life and the people around me.

2012 was a bitch. from hell. but i got through it and it can only go up from here im sure of it. As much as ive tried to put this year off - trying not think about the decisions ive had and still have to made/make its finally here and so far - with the love and support of my family, especially my brother, i dont know where id be without him - ive beaten the hardest part of the decision making already. thank goodness for that i feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders.

this year is about repair. Ive decided to take the year to have the necessary operations to repair my hands - and to work towards getting my standard back. I still get upset when i look back at how good i was at the end of matric and now, its heart breaking to not even be able to play half as good as that. but i am motivated and i will get that back and hopefully achieve more.

this year i will work to save money for a trip to greece next year i dont care if i go alone. it will happen, and i will have a goPro by the end of this year that will come with me.

i’ve started to make these goals because i’ve always gotten away with being lazy and even though its something i laugh at most of the time (because it is hilarious lets be honest) its not an excuse anymore because i want to be a happier person and this is the way i have to do it - set goals and achieve them.

i want to make my parents proud this year - the problems with my hands cause a lot of stress as my mom is the anti-op but i want to just do things to make them happy because the love and support they give me at the end of the day honestly humbles me so much it brings me to tears because i am a little shit and give them uphill and they still love me no matter what.

lastly i want to meet even more people this year, i got a taste of it on congress last year and that was only in december - i have known the friends i made there for not even two months and i can already tell that they’ll be my friends for the rest of my life - you can never have enough friends.

i hope i can look back on this post soon and smile due to the fact that ive accomplished some of these things.

a few other things and to sum this up, :